Hi all. I am extremely thankful to be learning to play the harp. However, the sensations I get when I try to play out of my comfort zone of my harp room are pretty unsettling. Last night I played for the group at my friend’s house. There were 3 kids under 5-1/2 running around, so lots of commotion, and very understanding people. Low pressure venue, right?
Not so much. In a new space, with a fancy, colorful carpet underneath me, I feel like my eyesight is leaving me. The strings look all different, the harp sounds funny, I suddenly mix up the C and F strings and I feel like I’m in a dark tunnel trying desperately to get through.
I’m taking my teacher’s and husband’s word for it that the more you do it the easier it becomes, so I’m forcing myself to take every opportunity I can to play for people. But, man! it feels like all my practicing goes out the window when I try to “perform!”
I’m playing with a group at a nursing home on Sunday–another opportunity to battle my demons. Wish me luck!