I’ve had my harp for 4 years and so far have made so little progress on it that I wonder if I should give up altogether. I have been having regular lessons but then I just find myself getting so tense and stressed about the whole instrument now. I am so frustrated that just sitting behind it is enough to make me feel irritated.
I love the instrument but I love it the most when I don’t touch it at all and just admire it from afar. I can happily leave it adorning the corner of my room for the rest of my life. I can’t find any reason or passion to play it, even though I still have a desire to be able to play it.
I’ve always wanted to play a musical instrument and this one is the only one I love. But it’s so disappointing to me that I find reading music so difficult, even after all this practice I still can’t sight read. I find any musical theory just mind boggling and can’t tell the difference if I’m playing a C or E chord. I wonder if I have any musical aptitude at all. I’m just about to pack it in, although I could never bring myself to ever part with my harp.