June 29, 2008 at 3:47 am #110884
Let me start by saying I usually dont do this, nor do I know where to
start.June 29, 2008 at 11:20 am #110885steven-todd-millerMember
Your story is exactly like a pianist I knew in college. She was on a full scholarship, but during the previous summer she got sick like you (I can’t remember what it was). She lost all of her musical cognition — there was no connection between her hands and her mind as far as playing went. I remember her absolute frustration and devastation as she said how she had been playing Chopin and the like but now she couldn’t even handle goofy little choral accompaniments — part of her scholarship was to play for various groups. The faculty of the school was less than understanding and gave her massive guilt trips because she wouldn’t surrender the money. I don’t know the exact end as I left the school, but I know she was a fighter and was determined to win. You will figure out a way to succeed, too, but don’t allow ANY negativity creep into your life. When those feelings of frustration start, treat yourself like a five year old and say “I am not going to let you talk to yourself this way!” and take a break. Good luck!June 29, 2008 at 12:50 pm #110886Briggsie B. PeawiggleParticipant
Harp Junkie……I know you can conquer this, and I totally TOTALLY understand. I have never been in your position, but that doesn’t mean I never will be. Someday anyone could wake up and boom……everything is changed and nothing works the way we want. We are all 1 breath from that when you think about it. It really sounds like you are a WARRIOR and that you will win this battle. You are coming back…..and you will come back further….just don’t give up. I know you won’t because unlike some people who “play music” there are those of us who are musicians by identity and for whom there is no other path. You will get there….keep it up…..and know that you are not alone. There are thousands of people fighting their own battles every day. Listen to your body and do what you need to do and don’t look back. DO NOT look back. Look forward…..look forward to the progress you are making.June 30, 2008 at 12:03 am #110887jennifer-buehlerMember
I’m so sorry to hear of your illness.June 30, 2008 at 2:45 am #110888David IceParticipant
Dear Harp Junkie,
I can relate to your situation!June 30, 2008 at 12:21 pm #110889jennifer-buehlerMember
Good for you David!July 10, 2008 at 9:20 pm #110890
I thank you for your story.July 10, 2008 at 9:23 pm #110891
I thank you all for your votes of confidence. The stories and ideas you have shared have helped a lot.July 10, 2008 at 9:36 pm #110892Jerusha AmadoParticipant
This trial will make you stronger.
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